Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Senarai Kontot

From Quora, thank you Trini Cariaga for the shortlist
"Personally… I describe myself as:
  • Annoying, but informative.
  • Soft, but heavy-handed.
  • Gentle, but honest.
  • Curious, but scared to ask.
  • Desire to wander, content to stay.
  • Easily excitable, but calm.
  • Obsessive, but not obnoxious.
  • Caring, but often not very attentive (too far in my own head).
  • Unresponsive, but feels a lot.
  • Polite, but brash when offended.
  • Optimistic, but can get myself down.
  • Hopeful, but unsure.
  • Passionate, but lazy.
  • Unorthodox in a crowd, but wants to not be noticed.
  • A heavy dreamer, a light sleeper.
  • High ambition with low motivation.
  • Daydreamy, but weighs out logic.
  • Creative, but feels like I always have artist’s block.
  • Quiet, but talkative when the right subject comes up.
  • Quiet-lover, but a melomaniac (I cant get enough of music and use it as a tool and coping mechanism).
  • A total contradiction
I have a habit of trying to predict the future and making myself sad or excited as a result… only to find that the situation turns out completely different than I could have ever imagined (good or bad).
I don’t like to be noticed and I don’t like people looking at me, but I love to be unique and I wear fantasy and alternative fashions because I like to feel otherworldly. Unfortunately this warrants the unwanted attention of other humans usually.
I could veg out for hours. Give me a large picture window overlooking the woods or the city with cars going by, a good spot on the floor, good music, a sketchpad, my laptop, my phone, and some snacks and I can stay there literally all day. For at least two days. Honestly, I don’t even need all that. Just the music and the window… I can even stare at a wall and veg out for a long time.
When I am hyperfixated on something I WON’T STOP. Whether a movie, a video game, a story, a cartoon show, a live action show… I won’t stop thinking about it obsessively for 3–5 months straight. I listen to music and the characters are all I think about. They are all I draw and care about for that length of time. Until.. I move on to the next obsession.
I want to go to foreign, magical, exciting places, but I don’t want to do the work and all the gobbledygook to get there."