Music In My Life

Talking about music, it play a huge part in my life. Of course, we also need other things in life, but for me, it will not complete without a music. I am a music lover and a sucker for good music.

Kiddo
As a kid, I just heard from TV, radio, and what my parent heard. It just about, that I like the song. And that’s it. And, during that I started to like music (By that time, I really like Ice, Ice Baby, ahak,ahak).

High School (SIGS)
I listen to pop a lot. This time, late 90s, boyband are like BSB, 5ive, O-town. Yup, talking about boyband and pop. The girls always talking 'bout who is the hottest one in the band . I remembered, I'm always watching 100 Billboard Chart every weekend. And Elton John, ‘The Way You Look Tonight’ was no.1 during that time. And also, I listen to R&B music, Boyz II Men, Usher. And there was, a weird group name Chumbawamba.

SAMURA
I bought my first cassette, Mytown. Haha, I think this boyband has already disbanded today (but one of the member had formed a band named The Script). I remembered there was one music store in Wetex Parade,Muar (popular shopping complex by that time among students,and probably other people) that I always bought the cassette. I can’t remember the name the cassettes I bought at that time. Dunno if, right now, the music store is still there (I think it still there). This time, more pop music that I bought. Everytime, when I went for outing, I will went to that music store. Searching a new cassette. My father also bought cassettes from music store. During this time also, I bought my first walkman. I remember when my mother said that I wanted really bad to bought a walkman. And finally, my father bought me a walkman with a recorder. He said if I want to record something (he know what I like even I didn't tell him). It was still with me right now. Almost 10 years old. Although it has fallen so many times, and even dipping in the river, the walkman was still doing okay.

Matriculation
This time, the rock music started coming to my life. I don’t know how it influences me. Maybe it was from my father.By that time, I started, listening to rock but mostly alternative music. I listen to Linkin Park, Silverchair, The Vines, Nickelback and I even bought their cassestte.( p/s: Thanks, Merin for checking my drawers, haha :) And Mariah Carey still can be found in my drawers .Hehe.

UKM
Life getting tougher. By this time, I listen more to old skool rock. Talking about Aerosmith, Led Zeppelin and I really like Maroon 5 :). But during this time, I was started not to buy the cassette because these day so hard to find a shop selling cassettes and they selling more CDs. It’s quite expensive. My father have maybe influence me because he listen a lot to Jimi Hendrix, Sweet Charity. Even Lefthanded, before they became famous, they had played at my parent wedding.
I remembered during my final year, crashing my dissertation, when I was doing something to the graphic things (the map actually) I listen to Wings and Search over and over again. Funny, I dunno how many times, the cassette was playing over and over again. Luckily, the cassette was not broken :)
But, of course, the most important thing is, I learn how to play the guitar. And it was the first time I bought the guitar. Actually, I didn’t tell my parent that I bought the guitar. I'm afraid that they will not like to know that a girl play a guitar. Until my last day in UKM, when I was about went back home, my parents came to get my things, the saw it. To my surprise, my father said that it was great guitar that I bought and my mother just asked ‘this is ur guitar?’ Yup. It was a relief.

UM
It was really stressful time. I was more developing preferences old skool stuff. Mostly 50’s, 60’s and 70’s until 90’s.But, rock music was still the no.1 genre. Sometimes, I prefer a live version or acoustic version of a song because we experimental a lot with that song. Yeah, sometime I feel bored too.( p/s : Thanks Mara for lending the guitar. Actually, I broke one of the strings but I freaked out, so I change all the strings. Sorry if it is not sound the same. Hehe :P

Today, almost 100 cassette that I bought. There are various music from rock to R&B, pop. Although some of cassette have mold in it, (my house have quite some mold, so it was easy to get the mold. Huhu).
The most important thing, the music means a lot to me. Anyway, whatever happen, we must not forget our responsibility. (Hoping to be a poet and a writer :)

It’s Not Me, It’s You

Life is about
Everything you want it to be
When you started
Thinking of someone
Feeling of someone
Or might be
Fell in love with someone
How it can change your life
Turn out to be
Good or bad
Even you don’t realized
Whether the rose is still a rose
When all the petal were gone
Whether the rain brings
The sanctify or inundation
Whether the sun holds
The liveliness or scarcity
Until you feel like
You don’t care about it anymore
The world seems been revolving
The time seems been passing
But the mind was stuck
With presence and memories
Seems so strong and clear
It’s not me, it’s you
It’s all about you
That always in my head

Tired

I don’t know
Lately I’ve been tired
About everything happen
Around me these days
Tired of hearing people saying
Telling you what to do
And what to say
Tired of thinking of what people
Said to you and done to you
Tired of doing the same old thing
And nothing was change
Tired of letting go
All the things that happen
For the bad things
But it had happen
Even when you try to erase
It was still there
Stuck in your head
For the good memories
You feel the time
Passing so fast and it leave you
Even you try so hard
To paste it in your head
Tired of letting the chance
Passing by through you
Until you feel so wasted
Tired of waiting
For the one that wish for
Even we know that will never happen
Tired of knowing that
Love is only exist
When we want to feel it
And the most important things is
The things that we never grew tired
Was feeling in love

Beginnning

Lately, I’ve been thinking about writing. Again. And my friendster blog was not updated. I have been keeping a book. Possibly a journal. But recently, I’m not putting my mind it. I don’t know, I just like to keep it my head. Maybe too lazy too write. Heh. I like to write with pencil in it. If don’t have a pencil with me whenever I wanna write, I don’t write it. I don’t know why. Maybe I like to read it again with a pencil writing scenery. Maybe I love to write with pencil. Man, sometimes I just don’t understand with myself. Sigh.

The reason I started a whole new blog, because I am always like to be writer. Its one of my passion, although my writing was not some expensive writing like someone has written a thousand times. It just coming out from me. Fresh and ‘undescribe’. That’s what I think. Foremost, I want to continued from my friendster blog. I stopped from there and continued here. It is easier to read, I think.

An most importantly, music has keeping me company whenever I write. I like to listen to music when I’m writing from my mind. Sometimes, people like a quiet sound when to write something. Yeah, to keep them concentrate. I like that too but mostly, for me it always with me. And I like to listen to Traxx fm at night. They have incredible songs. Its not always a hit song, because I don’t like listening a hit song especially current songs over and over again. It just make my head spinning around and maybe want to throw out later (exaggerate too much, I think . Not that its bad (its quite ok) or I hate the song but there are thousand other better song, a good song, although it is not a hit. A hit song it just a song that hit you for the first time you hear it. It just feel like when you hit by a bus or train (I don't know how to explain,huhu).

But don’t worry, the hit radio station don’t stop playing what you like to play, but it need to loosen up a little. Hmmm.. What can I say, a business it just a business. People like what they hear over and over again.

This was just an introduction. Just to get the feeling to start writing. Maybe it is a little bit late. I’m getting older by this time. So, young people, if you want to start something, start. Right now.


‘Song – Temptation by Diana Krall’