Thursday, August 19, 2010

Thought

"sometimes world doesn't allowed us to be what we want to be or who we are"

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Kadang – Kadang

Kadang- kadang aku bosan

Kadang-kadang susah nak lelapkan mata

Kadang- kadang aku tak paham ape yang aku buat

Kadang-kadang rajin

Kadang-kadang malas

Kadang-kadang aku tak suka apa yang aku buat

Kadang-kadang risau

Kadang-kadang buat tak tahu

Isy. Bahaya betul aku. Asyik kadang-kadang.

Kadang-kadang lagik. Dah diam.



‘Lagu yang tengah bermain di telinga aku semasa aku memikirkan entri ini, Superman by Stereophonics’

I Need Someone

One day, I just realized that
There is someone I need
Someone who understand me
Someone who needs me
Like I need someone
But I know
There is something
Something that keeps bothering
Not much, time
Not much, endeavor
Left for me
I don’t need someone
Who like me because the way I look
Because of my attainable
Because of my knack
Sometime when I needed someone
But he doesn’t need me
Maybe they just doesn’t care
Right now, inside of me was crying
The head was just a mess
Trouble sleeping was apart of me
Fallen in everywhere
I still searching
My mind keep wandering
The center of mine was keep beating
What I need is
Someone who need me
Like I need him
Never mind, just keep on walking
Until you find someone
Who needs you
Like you need him
Together the needs of someone
Will fulfill
And surrounding you always

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Get Me Outta Here / Runaway

So many sleepless nights
Feeling something that was not right
That empty feeling
Kept coming and strolling
In my head
So sick of it
Because it can’t just go away
It just there
It can be stop
Or it can be turn on
It was sad
When you realize that
The people you love
Can’t love you back
When you know that
The people you love,
Break your heart
When you learn that
You can’t be with him
Your heart is screaming
Your mind is pulsing
Even you feel like
Nothing is going on
But it will not go away
It just be one of your dark mark in your life
You just feel want to runaway from here
Or screaming like get me outta here
Guilty feeling is arise
But you can’t deny it
Or to stop it
All you can do is
To have faith
That is something better for you
Are waiting out there

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Magic Night








Magic Night

April, my favourite night
Sense of music
The feel of it
Soundness

Cloud of smoke
Hints of lights
People surrounding
Loud and slow
Speaks

Waiting
Time getting late
Dark sea
Unpatient people
Singing and talking

Feeling
Dark stage
Awaiting persona
Existing

Touches of light
On the shoulder
Beautiful it is
The way of it
So is the sound

Unforgettable
The scene
The personas
Remember
Everything
The music

(STEREOPHONICS LIVE IN KL 28 APRIL 2010)

IMAGES BY MIRANDA YEOH
COURTESY FROM JUICEONLINE.COM

(later probably I tagged some videos :D)

Life Is Complicated Enough

My mind keeps wandering
My friends said don’t worry too much
But I kept thinking
Why things acting that such

Forget what happen to you
Don’t matter what is past
Somewhere in my head still have it too
Hope it will run away fast

Memories have been good and bad
Time keep moving on
The things we had
Sometimes there and sometimes gone

If you always thinking about
Why things acting like that
All you can do, is to get out
And try to beat that

I know if you know
That you can stop it from happen
Just take it slow
And other road will open

People don’t know exactly
What you have been really
You have been take it easy
But in a way so strongly

So, lets get goin
Walk on and don’t look back
And let’s the feeling join
No matter its white or black

Smile and sunshine are the same
They had the good gene
Everyone wearing the name
So, wear it where other people can be seen

Life is what us had accepted
Life is simple or can be tough
Life is just full of unexpected
Or life is just complicated enough

Unsleep

Agitated, blinking
Waiting for someone
Hearing some music
Blues maybe

Tired, can’t sleep
Thinking
Something
Someone
Alone and lonely

Second ticking,
Lazy clouding
Don’t care
Feelingless

Help me,
Helpless
People are nothing
There are not special
Bored with ordinary
Just plain

Hoping
Better days
Extraordinary
Something unique
They don’t understand

Leave it
Forget it
Unique
You are

Monday, April 12, 2010

Music In My Life

Talking about music, it play a huge part in my life. Of course, we also need other things in life, but for me, it will not complete without a music. I am a music lover and a sucker for good music.

Kiddo
As a kid, I just heard from TV, radio, and what my parent heard. It just about, that I like the song. And that’s it. And, during that I started to like music (By that time, I really like Ice, Ice Baby, ahak,ahak).

High School (SIGS)
I listen to pop a lot. This time, late 90s, boyband are like BSB, 5ive, O-town. Yup, talking about boyband and pop. The girls always talking 'bout who is the hottest one in the band . I remembered, I'm always watching 100 Billboard Chart every weekend. And Elton John, ‘The Way You Look Tonight’ was no.1 during that time. And also, I listen to R&B music, Boyz II Men, Usher. And there was, a weird group name Chumbawamba.

SAMURA
I bought my first cassette, Mytown. Haha, I think this boyband has already disbanded today (but one of the member had formed a band named The Script). I remembered there was one music store in Wetex Parade,Muar (popular shopping complex by that time among students,and probably other people) that I always bought the cassette. I can’t remember the name the cassettes I bought at that time. Dunno if, right now, the music store is still there (I think it still there). This time, more pop music that I bought. Everytime, when I went for outing, I will went to that music store. Searching a new cassette. My father also bought cassettes from music store. During this time also, I bought my first walkman. I remember when my mother said that I wanted really bad to bought a walkman. And finally, my father bought me a walkman with a recorder. He said if I want to record something (he know what I like even I didn't tell him). It was still with me right now. Almost 10 years old. Although it has fallen so many times, and even dipping in the river, the walkman was still doing okay.

Matriculation
This time, the rock music started coming to my life. I don’t know how it influences me. Maybe it was from my father.By that time, I started, listening to rock but mostly alternative music. I listen to Linkin Park, Silverchair, The Vines, Nickelback and I even bought their cassestte.( p/s: Thanks, Merin for checking my drawers, haha :) And Mariah Carey still can be found in my drawers .Hehe.

UKM
Life getting tougher. By this time, I listen more to old skool rock. Talking about Aerosmith, Led Zeppelin and I really like Maroon 5 :). But during this time, I was started not to buy the cassette because these day so hard to find a shop selling cassettes and they selling more CDs. It’s quite expensive. My father have maybe influence me because he listen a lot to Jimi Hendrix, Sweet Charity. Even Lefthanded, before they became famous, they had played at my parent wedding.
I remembered during my final year, crashing my dissertation, when I was doing something to the graphic things (the map actually) I listen to Wings and Search over and over again. Funny, I dunno how many times, the cassette was playing over and over again. Luckily, the cassette was not broken :)
But, of course, the most important thing is, I learn how to play the guitar. And it was the first time I bought the guitar. Actually, I didn’t tell my parent that I bought the guitar. I'm afraid that they will not like to know that a girl play a guitar. Until my last day in UKM, when I was about went back home, my parents came to get my things, the saw it. To my surprise, my father said that it was great guitar that I bought and my mother just asked ‘this is ur guitar?’ Yup. It was a relief.

UM
It was really stressful time. I was more developing preferences old skool stuff. Mostly 50’s, 60’s and 70’s until 90’s.But, rock music was still the no.1 genre. Sometimes, I prefer a live version or acoustic version of a song because we experimental a lot with that song. Yeah, sometime I feel bored too.( p/s : Thanks Mara for lending the guitar. Actually, I broke one of the strings but I freaked out, so I change all the strings. Sorry if it is not sound the same. Hehe :P

Today, almost 100 cassette that I bought. There are various music from rock to R&B, pop. Although some of cassette have mold in it, (my house have quite some mold, so it was easy to get the mold. Huhu).
The most important thing, the music means a lot to me. Anyway, whatever happen, we must not forget our responsibility. (Hoping to be a poet and a writer :)

Friday, April 9, 2010

It’s Not Me, It’s You

Life is about
Everything you want it to be
When you started
Thinking of someone
Feeling of someone
Or might be
Fell in love with someone
How it can change your life
Turn out to be
Good or bad
Even you don’t realized
Whether the rose is still a rose
When all the petal were gone
Whether the rain brings
The sanctify or inundation
Whether the sun holds
The liveliness or scarcity
Until you feel like
You don’t care about it anymore
The world seems been revolving
The time seems been passing
But the mind was stuck
With presence and memories
Seems so strong and clear
It’s not me, it’s you
It’s all about you
That always in my head

Tired

I don’t know
Lately I’ve been tired
About everything happen
Around me these days
Tired of hearing people saying
Telling you what to do
And what to say
Tired of thinking of what people
Said to you and done to you
Tired of doing the same old thing
And nothing was change
Tired of letting go
All the things that happen
For the bad things
But it had happen
Even when you try to erase
It was still there
Stuck in your head
For the good memories
You feel the time
Passing so fast and it leave you
Even you try so hard
To paste it in your head
Tired of letting the chance
Passing by through you
Until you feel so wasted
Tired of waiting
For the one that wish for
Even we know that will never happen
Tired of knowing that
Love is only exist
When we want to feel it
And the most important things is
The things that we never grew tired
Was feeling in love

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Beginnning

Lately, I’ve been thinking about writing. Again. And my friendster blog was not updated. I have been keeping a book. Possibly a journal. But recently, I’m not putting my mind it. I don’t know, I just like to keep it my head. Maybe too lazy too write. Heh. I like to write with pencil in it. If don’t have a pencil with me whenever I wanna write, I don’t write it. I don’t know why. Maybe I like to read it again with a pencil writing scenery. Maybe I love to write with pencil. Man, sometimes I just don’t understand with myself. Sigh.

The reason I started a whole new blog, because I am always like to be writer. Its one of my passion, although my writing was not some expensive writing like someone has written a thousand times. It just coming out from me. Fresh and ‘undescribe’. That’s what I think. Foremost, I want to continued from my friendster blog. I stopped from there and continued here. It is easier to read, I think.

An most importantly, music has keeping me company whenever I write. I like to listen to music when I’m writing from my mind. Sometimes, people like a quiet sound when to write something. Yeah, to keep them concentrate. I like that too but mostly, for me it always with me. And I like to listen to Traxx fm at night. They have incredible songs. Its not always a hit song, because I don’t like listening a hit song especially current songs over and over again. It just make my head spinning around and maybe want to throw out later (exaggerate too much, I think . Not that its bad (its quite ok) or I hate the song but there are thousand other better song, a good song, although it is not a hit. A hit song it just a song that hit you for the first time you hear it. It just feel like when you hit by a bus or train (I don't know how to explain,huhu).

But don’t worry, the hit radio station don’t stop playing what you like to play, but it need to loosen up a little. Hmmm.. What can I say, a business it just a business. People like what they hear over and over again.

This was just an introduction. Just to get the feeling to start writing. Maybe it is a little bit late. I’m getting older by this time. So, young people, if you want to start something, start. Right now.


‘Song – Temptation by Diana Krall’