Thursday, July 20, 2017

Mr Bennington

Susulan daripada status pasal Linkin Park die hard fan dan kematian Chester Bennington, aku bukanlah die hard atau dipanggil fan jugak tapi lagu diorang aku still boleh masuk jugak. Suara Chester Bennington oklah pada aku walau tak sepower Cornell sebab pada aku nak tengok suara power tak power tengok suara berapa jauh boleh pegi dan bab menjerit2 tak termasuk. Mr Cornell ni aku start folo pun masa dia dah solo sebab aku suka suara dia. Tapi ini depend pada pendapat masing2.

Memori aku tentang Linkin Park masa aku studi matriks dulu dekat Bukit Mertajam. Aku dulu suka jugak beli kaset, tapi takde sampai tahap beli kaset indie. Aku masuk kedai music store. Time aku nak bayar, Bro Ah Meng tengok serupa tak percaya. Maybe sebab aku pakai tudung hitam hitam sekolah dan baju kurung coklat kotak. Budak baik beli kaset. Dahla scenery kaset gelap je. Prejudis ini berlaku lagi masa aku kat uni masa aku beli kaset Prince’s Musicology. Citarasa tak melambang rupa. Hahaha.
Berakhirnya riwayat kaset Hybrid Theory masa tengah berperang dengan kemarahan diri. Aku main album Hybrid Theory dalam gelap. Pusing punya pusing sampai rosak kaset aku. Gone sudah dalam collection.
Skang illegal download to Ipod. Debut album aku masih lagi berbanding album2 kemudian. A Place For My Head lagu favorite aku. Thanks Mr Bennington for the memories.

Saturday, July 15, 2017

Love & Friendship

This title has nothing in common Love & Friendship by Jane Austen. Though the theme is the same. I watched the film and Sir James is very amusing. I Iaughed. Very unexpected ending indeed. 

Love is a commitment. Love is big. As for Greek, there is 5 types of love.

Friendship is built on trust. We might friend with them. It built for years.  We get a wrong concept when involved with different gender. And if a different gender friend, they will fall on love. As it for me, love is one and we cannot love equally with a lot of people. Friendship is you care even he is married already. I will not dive in furthermore because this cause strained with wife and jealousy and confusion. As female which rule with emotion, you cannot control with it and be wise. We have genuine feeling but sometimes misunderstood by others. And that we pray.

Talk like friend. Talk has feeling? What is this? There are sometimes we like to talk with male friend and sometimes female friend. Small talk is exhausting. We need serious talk. We talk what we like in common. We talk about our interest. Why waste the time talking unnecessary. Just remember to talk about lecturer and the pattern and the behaviour. We talk and we forgot time until we remind that is our time. Just remember we talk about tiring and still want to do the hiking. It is a relief really. We thanked for that. 

Care and sacrifice, we sometimes blindly understand it. Understand is a big word. Just remember, took take the parents and little brother who had high fever. It is tiring to do all things alone. Now I know. What it feel like a mother, a woman which lesser strength than a man be able to all things. Work in days and later at night, work as housewife. Do multiple things non stop. I just realised that. Wow, what a powerful human being. Did it to do all this things has to talk in doing it. Take your time. Think. Unwise? Lazy? Feelingless. I don’t know if is called love. You let all this things at one side. Didn’t it occurred in your mind? Maybe we are not exposed enough. Adventure feed our soul. 

Maybe we did not understand enough. If not understand, seek and ask. 

We are define by our action, not words. 


I always write when cannot sleep and in bleak phase with the music on, which is right Shadow On the Run by Black Rebel Motorcycle Club