Hold On

I wrote this was out my anxiousness. Even when I am reading the book, I was not into it. I forget what I read before. Even one page before. My mind was wandering. It is not thinking too much. It is the way you are. You cannot stop. People don’t understand. All they can do is try to change you. Change is good. Change not until you forget yourselves. All they care is what they can see on the surface. It was painful to do something when it it the first place you do not like it. It is painful to see your body was there but your soul, your mind was not. I’m trying too hard in being this. To hold myself. I need to hold on, hold on, like a mantra I’m saying this to myself. But I still feel gratitude to Allah on who have I become. On who am I. For me, to live in this world is to be able to do the thing that resemble who you are. You are in happiness to do it. Definition is different to other people. I feel gratitude of who I am. I know, life is not meant to be easy. That is why we have heaven in the afterlife. And it is not easy to get into the heaven. The most kind of the people is the people who is kind to other people. The definition of kind is big. The hard things to do is the helping other people. Because we are still have selfish. It is the tiniest part in every human. Except the prophet and the greatest of prophet Muhammad PBUH. Until the end of his life, he is still not forgetting his beloved ummah. We try our best to do the example from him.